, premiered on You Tube Tuesday, giving fans a raw look at her road to recovery. Lovato Tried Cocaine for the First Time at Age 17After being bullied for years in school, a popular student peer pressured Lovato into partying.Directed by Hannah Lux Davis and filmed over the course of seven months in early 2017, it covers everything from her eating disorder to her sobriety, and even her first major heartbreak. She first drank alcohol and smoked marijuana, and she tried cocaine around the time she was working for the Disney Channel."It's embarrassing to look back at the person I was."4. Lovato continued to use drugs in secret, and even faked drug tests using other people's urine. At her lowest, Lovato invited two "random people" to party in her hotel room and got "really, really drunk" with them before a flight in 2012.She Spent Time in a Psych Ward While in Palm Springs, Lovato's specialist says the singer had to be hospitalized after locking herself in her bedroom and swallowing pills. The bottle of pills is there, she grabs the pills, she then downs all the other pills and says, 'You f--king bitch! "I was so drunk, I vomited in the back of the car service on the way to the airport to perform on ," she says. "I felt like that was a moment in my career where I didn't care," she admits."My dad was an addict and an alcoholic," Lovato says of her biological father."I guess I always searched for what he found in drugs and alcohol because it fulfilled him and he chose that over a family."2.But first, she smashed it on a plate and threw it in a vase of water. "It was the beginning of the process of surrendering," Lovato says.5. I thought, 'I have to have him,' but I was only 17 and he was like, 'Get away from me,'" the singer says. He was just my rock, my everything.""I've never loved anybody like I loved Wilmer and I still love him," she continues.
And Demi Lovato, 25, joined forces with a rising star in another industry, as she enjoyed a night out with sporting star Neymar - who is currently the highest paid footballer in the world."I was like, 'You're so full of it.'"Lovato knew she was burning bridges."I was using while I had a sober companion, and I went through like 20 sober companions. I was not easy to work with," the "Heart Attack" singer says.That was one of the reasons why we broke up, because I've never been alone," the "Give Your Heart a Break" singer explains. We decided together that we just probably are better as friends."At times, she has regrets. I think it will be, because you don't share six years with somebody and not give them a piece of your heart, and vice versa.
"I do have moments where it's late at night, I'm lonely and I wonder if I made the right decision, because love is a gamble," she says. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to meet anybody that compares to him, but I'm trying to keep an open heart and open mind when it comes to that."6.
The singer also took to Instagram on Tuesday to promote an upcoming Spanish-language collaboration with singer Luis Fonsi, 39.